Changed...

Truly been a long time since I last blogged. Today my 2nd Senester examinations got over and I have now some time and space to breathe. But again I got a helluva lot to pach into 2 small bags and get going for home. The day after tomorrow is the day that I shall board the train. Really stupendous. Going home for around TWO FRIGGIN MONTHS.

I hate packing. I always hated packing. Previously my mom used to pack for me. Well, no moms here. That makes me think ... how different I have become in the months I have been here. I used to be a completely different person once.

I was a cool guy, didn't care about anybody. I used to be a listener of rock, so as to say, and was very carefree. I'm still carefree, but in a very different way. I used to go out, have fun, drink, smoke, chat, play computer games and all. A lot of my things were done by other people. Bank work was often done by my dad or mom. Then cleaning up my room, washing my clothes, take care of my food (what I eat, when I eat, nutrition) were all taken care by my dear mom. I used to go to college by my dad's car, bunk classes there, go to Oly pub once in a while, enjoy drinking. I did shit in those days man. I was a crazy guy. At home I used to watch TV, listen to music, play computer games, pretend to study, write poetry. Man! Those really were the days.

Now, I feel different. I feel older. I feel more matured. The biggest difference now is that I have a someone, who is very special to me, for whom I patiently count the days. She has brought me happiness and hope during my days here in this city. Without her i would have gone nuts here. I wouldn't have been able to cope. Apart from her I have also grown into a different man. Previously I thought I would never be able to gel in with the people here. I have adjusted. I can now call them friends. Thats because I had to change; change so that I became like them. In what way? I'll describe them and you'll understand.

They are the kind of people I saw in Xavier's who do classes, do not drink, do not chill out in the usual sense of chilling out. They are the kind of public who have never been to Xavotsav. They have come from bengali medium-state board educated-mufassal board. They have terrible english grammar, enunciation and all. They crack stupid silly PJs and they laugh at it themselves.

I have not become that bad, come on! It's still just me. I have just become more accepting, tolerant and a lot of other similar words. I can now bend my 'self' more than I ever could. I can now play 29, yea. I dont play computer games, I listen to music a lot less, I dont play the guitar anymore (cuz i dont have one and even if I had, there is no one to appreciate the music).

I am still the same crazy guy.