Once I reach there, need to do a few things...
1) Get a hostel room
2) Create a bank account, link it to my dad's account so I can get the money he sends me
3) Get a new cell number there and tell all my people about it.
4) Order a new pair of spectacles, ya I got glasses. One step closer to a geek.
5) Exercise
6) Study
7) Make friends
8) Wash clothes
9) Listen to rock music
10)Remeber all my people
Friday, July 20, 2007
Last night in Cal
So what I've been in Calcutta all my life till this day? Yes I love this city. I have everything here, everybody here, everything that matters, everything I dislike. For me Calcutta is the world. It has been good to me.
Tonight is my last night in Calcutta. I'm going to Pune. I got admitted to the MSc course in Physics at the University Of Pune. I'm going tomorrow. I still have some packing left. Really it is y mom who's doing all the packing for me. I depend on her.
Yes, I have been a parent's son all my life, and I liked it. They helped me to do everything till today. Helped me make bank accounts, helped me go places. What I am now I because of them. But from tomorrow it is a completely different thing. I'm on my own from now. I gotta life at a hostel which I have never done before. I will have to wash all my clothes including my undies. I have never done them before. I have to take care of myself and my health. My mom used to make me eat a balanced diet, she used to force me to take fruits for the vitamins. Now I'll have to choose my own food. I assume I'll become an independant MAN there. So, what I will be in future will be because of me.
Since I have to go tomorrow, I should be feeling sad. Weirdly I dont feel anything. It feels like the most normal thing to do. I'll go there, make something out of my life, go further and further, make my ambitions materialise. Does sound like a normal thing to do. Fair enough. But then again, would I say not having any feelings means it feels normal? Not having any feelings could mean I feel numb. It could be like there is no turning back now. I will have to be a slave to all emotions and leave, even if I cry. It's like a jungle of mixed feelings that render nothingness in the end.
It's late at night, 1:04 AM. I was just smsing this very sweet friend of mine telling her I would probably miss her the most. Of all the people I know, I know her for the shortest time. Last few days spoke to her a lot - 2.5 hours, 3.5 hours (on the phone), chatted over GTalk for hours. I hurt her, made up with her. Now will miss her. The first person I speak about in this blog is her. That does make her special, but it's also that I'm still communicating with her via "mc's".
Went for a leak...checked the mirror...I got very red eyes. NO i've not been crying, I said I was feeling normal. I am very sleepy. Good night. Bye Bye Calcutta...
Tonight is my last night in Calcutta. I'm going to Pune. I got admitted to the MSc course in Physics at the University Of Pune. I'm going tomorrow. I still have some packing left. Really it is y mom who's doing all the packing for me. I depend on her.
Yes, I have been a parent's son all my life, and I liked it. They helped me to do everything till today. Helped me make bank accounts, helped me go places. What I am now I because of them. But from tomorrow it is a completely different thing. I'm on my own from now. I gotta life at a hostel which I have never done before. I will have to wash all my clothes including my undies. I have never done them before. I have to take care of myself and my health. My mom used to make me eat a balanced diet, she used to force me to take fruits for the vitamins. Now I'll have to choose my own food. I assume I'll become an independant MAN there. So, what I will be in future will be because of me.
Since I have to go tomorrow, I should be feeling sad. Weirdly I dont feel anything. It feels like the most normal thing to do. I'll go there, make something out of my life, go further and further, make my ambitions materialise. Does sound like a normal thing to do. Fair enough. But then again, would I say not having any feelings means it feels normal? Not having any feelings could mean I feel numb. It could be like there is no turning back now. I will have to be a slave to all emotions and leave, even if I cry. It's like a jungle of mixed feelings that render nothingness in the end.
It's late at night, 1:04 AM. I was just smsing this very sweet friend of mine telling her I would probably miss her the most. Of all the people I know, I know her for the shortest time. Last few days spoke to her a lot - 2.5 hours, 3.5 hours (on the phone), chatted over GTalk for hours. I hurt her, made up with her. Now will miss her. The first person I speak about in this blog is her. That does make her special, but it's also that I'm still communicating with her via "mc's".
Went for a leak...checked the mirror...I got very red eyes. NO i've not been crying, I said I was feeling normal. I am very sleepy. Good night. Bye Bye Calcutta...
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